Every day I act im totally fine, but deep down I think about

Every day I act im totally fine, but deep down I think about

How are you feeling today?

I just found out, women during their 36-46 have best sex life. I just had shitty sex life last 8 years soon to be, actually 4,5 years I have not had any sex. And its by my own choice! I dont want to share my body with whoever.

Less sex or not sex at all, like I have done last 4,5 years. Makes you kinda strange tho. I wonder if remember how it was to have sex. I want to feel loved, I can’t even have sex with any without emotions involved. How about you? Do you have random sex with many?
If so remember that, every time you have sex with someone you take with you their energy, all their unhealed part becomes part of you too. It takes time and a lot of effort to get ride of their energy!

I dont want to share myself with someone who carry lots of bad energy from others, I wonder if I gonna get laid at all in my 40`s.

Reason behind why I stay single, I dont want my girl to call someone daddy every other year. I want to have stable man beside me. So she dont get attached to guys that not gonna last in my life.