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Jeg er s\u00e5 heldig at jeg har en lillebror fra annen mor, som bor i Canada. Jeg traff han da jeg var i India med Adelina den gang 4 \u00e5r. Vi var 4 uker i Goa og jobbet frivillig. Du kan lese om turen v\u00e5r HER<\/a> om du \u00f8nsker det..

Men ja min kj\u00e6re lillebror er tilbake dit, og med det d\u00e5rlig nett som er der. Har han likevel klart \u00e5 sende meg brev og masse bilder og videoer.

Men s\u00e5 f\u00e5r jeg ikke \u00e5pnet de bildene. Men jeg fikk ordnet det likevel.

Jeg er s\u00e5 heldig at jeg f\u00e5r delta i turen deres likevel, selv om det er veldig rart \u00e5 tenke at lillebror er der uten meg. Buhuuu

Han f\u00f8lte det vist helt likt selv. S\u00e5 det er godt det g\u00e5r begge veier.

Jeg elsker mennesker som sier ting som det er. \u00c6rlige med sine f\u00f8lelser. Rart og godt \u00e5 tenke at selvom v\u00e5res generasjon ikke snakker stort om f\u00f8lelser. S\u00e5 l\u00e6rer vi barna v\u00e5res \u00e5 h\u00f8re p\u00e5 deres.

Det er jo fantastisk vi sier ting til dem vi ikke gj\u00f8r selv til vanlig. Alts\u00e5 jeg er jo f\u00f8lelsemenneske da. Men ja, uansett her handlet dette ikke om noen enn reisebrev i fra min kj\u00e6re bror. Det var slik det var.

Se her, begynner \u00e5 bli litt puff igjen i meg. Men ja jeg har tenkt masse tanker. Og jeg har skj\u00f8nt n\u00e5 at en trenger \u00e5 komme seg ut av huset, hvis noe skal skje.

Men jeg har endelig huset for meg selv. Og det begynner \u00e5 bli s\u00e5 koselig. S\u00e5 rolig og fredelig. Det er h\u00f8st, alle g\u00e5r jo i hi n\u00e5 s\u00e5. Men ja det er godt \u00e5 v\u00e6re i sitt eget hjem og ikke blande seg inn i un\u00f8dvendig drama. Og la bare folk bare v\u00e6re det dem er.

Jeg skal ikke f\u00e5 jabbe kick i denne tr\u00e5den. Jeg kan ta den en annen plass. Men ja Tusen takk til deg kj\u00e6re s\u00f8ster, kj\u00e6re bror, kj\u00e6re menneske For akkurat du finnes.

Om du hadde vist hvor viktig du er for s\u00e5 mange. Om du hadde bare trodd p\u00e5 deg selv like mye som du tror p\u00e5 andre og sett deg selv i andre sine \u00f8yner. Ja dette var egentlig pep talk til meg selv ogs\u00e5 … bare s\u00e5 det er sagt.

Og ja ikke bry seg om hatere, dem vil jo ikke hate i bunn og grunn. Vi vil jo ALLE bli trodd og forst\u00e5tt. Selvom noen klarer \u00e5 vri og vrenge p\u00e5 virkeligheten.

S\u00e5 likevel hvis jeg skal gi min forst\u00e5else til det. S\u00e5 er det jo for dem vil bli trodd av det dem ser av deres side av verden.
Dessuten trigge hverandre er bra ogs\u00e5, for da l\u00e6rer en mye av seg selv faktisk.

Men ja dette var leserbrev ja. \u00c5h noe lunde godt \u00e5 kjenne at lokk i hodet driver og gir slipp. Den har holdt p\u00e5 siden i fjor, lurer p\u00e5 om det gir noen gang helt slipp. Eller bare daner ny propp seg, for hver gang en skifter “skinn”…?

Jaja det finner jeg vel ut n\u00e5r jeg har g\u00e5tt gjennom dette livet.

Men ja det er l\u00f8srivelse tid gitt, aksept tid. Det kjennes som nytt, skummelt og spennende, kvalmende, skremmende og samtidig masse glede f\u00f8ler jeg n\u00e5r jeg tenker p\u00e5 det. Levende rett og slett..


S\u00e5 da kan det ikke v\u00e6re annet enn Riktig. S\u00e5 jeg bare puster med magen og tenker kanskje jeg skal bli litt glad i v\u00e6re mer ute og kanskje jeg treffer p\u00e5 mennesker jeg kan glede og jeg f\u00e5r glede av det selv.

Men ja jeg pleier \u00e5 ta maraton, n\u00e5r jeg f\u00f8rst gj\u00f8r slikt. Men jeg tenkte kanskje begynne rolig fra n\u00e5 av.

Vi f\u00e5r se. Hver dag er det ny greie. Heldigvis er alt alltid i bevegelse. Ingen dag er like. Jeg er takknemlig at jeg kan st\u00e5 opp i varmt hus og har mat og rent vann \u00e5 drikke.
Kj\u00f8re bil og komme meg dit jeg skal. Vi tar s\u00e5 mye for gitt at vi planlegger til \u00e5 med 5 -10 \u00e5r fram i tid.

Men ja jeg skal ikke ta min jabbe kick her, det var vist s\u00e5nt det var..

Du fantastiske fine sjel, takk for du har hengt med selvom jeg har ramlet litt s\u00e5nn av, men samtidig holdt meg fast…

Jeg er glad i akkurat deg <3

PS. Om du \u00f8nsker jeg skal dele dine historier send gjerne en epost til meg! Jeg poster med glede.



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(Cred to my little Brother from another mother Jessie Law<\/a>. Thank you for sharing your story and taking your time to send it to me. I looking for go back there again with you guys. Lots of Love and hugs from big Sis.. <3

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This is our five week journey to India from Canada and how and why we got here twice. My Dad Fred law, Me Jessie Sperling Law are working with a home for mentally and physically disabled (larsh). As well as some that just needs some assistants and support. We fell in love with India and the people right away!! It has always been my goal and dream to work with people in some way since I was a little kid. I used to want to be a pediatrician when I was in elementary then a counselor in high school. Now I\u2019m 18 in India for second time thinking what\u2019s next after this little bit of school.
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Most likely try to get more pieces of paper to be able to live but job wise maybe traveling photographer for a while, then I want to go to school to become a therapist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The reason India helped me out so much goes way back to why I was needing change In the first place. I struggled in elementary high school with anxiety, and a post-traumatic stress from elementary I did not trust an adults words until grade 9 or 10 because I was labeled with a bunch of wrong labels that were cleared up in high school. They actually thought I was slow and missed everything. But I knew that was wrong but struggled to have a voice, well it\u2019s hard to comprehend that in grade 2 lol.
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But then I was tested in grade 9 to come to my surprise I had an above average IQ by far and was so over aware it crippled me to where I could do nothing but be stuck in my head.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This doctor in high school pretty much said your brain is so over active you just need to harness it. I have A.D.D and anxious P.T.S.D from trust issues from other bad experiences. But I have hyper activity in my brain and not my body so I was never jittery, so that\u2019s why on the outside I looked slow and to myself. This diagnosis was related to being too oversensitive and over anxiousness. And was definitely why I feel others emotions and was always the therapist on the playground HAHA.
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This took a while to take in around grade end of grade 10 because my trust issues. That\u2019s when I realized I was living my life like a movie and wasn\u2019t progressing or doing anything different for myself and this put me in a spiral for 3 years, slowly went up and down and couldn\u2019t reach out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So my Dad being the awesome dude he is he made a bunch of cedar boxes which is what he does for a living just in our basement and he saved and sold saved and sold 100s of boxes for me to be able to get away from me sitting at home, groups of unhealthy friendships, drugs, but most of all myself and the revolving doors I kept going through and not realizing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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So my Dad asked.
\u201cWould you want to go on a trip to eastern Canada\u201d? And I said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cCould we go to a place where we are in new cultures helping and exercising new stuff\u201d?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So my Dad being the cool guy he is said yes and took us here with nothing except his own hands and a lot of wood at 62.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In India we met people I\u2019m glad I met. Green lion people the locals and of course Azi from Norway! Around our first trip to I released a lot of this I did wrong or stuff I saw unclearly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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So if you feel stuck in any way you might just not realize how you are making yourself stuck, sometimes people keep you there by treating you a certain way but it\u2019s your responsibility what your perception. not everyone is aware as some I expected people to just notice my predicament without being able to express what I needed fully.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Azi you actually told me this<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cDo you and if you are telling people what you need and they don\u2019t change they aren\u2019t meant for you anyway.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not saying everyone should pick up a volunteer position and join something everyone is different, but lean into your bad habits once you realize what\u2019s that habit is and how it\u2019s holding you back. Then break from it. It is a lot easier than trying over and over making that habit more part of your routine. Help addicts if you were and addict or get addicted to adrenalin and working out if you ate too much. Or just chill out if you feel like a work horse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I know that might seem easy for a millennial 18 year old to say but it isn\u2019t, because I\u2019m just now familiar with my own story to be able to think<\/p>\n\n\n\n

through it sanely enough that I can put one foot in front of the other one and be comfortable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

India did all these good thing for me because I always loved working with people but I also saw things that surprised me about India like the hospitality and the caring for everyone. I know it\u2019s not everywhere but for instance in the seek temples allow Hindus, Muslims, Christians any religion can go eat with them for free no matter your wealth your cast everyone is welcome. So lots of people try to not become too detached from reality or where people start and they eat together, celebrate and volunteer together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Also I feel that in these guys\u2019 religions teach you how to communicate with \u201cGod\u201d the universe (whatever gets your goat aha) yourself and not have to depend on a person- middle man or pay or pray for you. I am not religious or super spiritual but this place has made me feel connected to the earth and people again! So thanks India and people that stuck close!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Written by: Jessie S-Law

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Jeg er s\u00e5 heldig at jeg har en lillebror fra annen mor, som bor i Canada. Jeg traff han da jeg var i India med Adelina den gang 4 \u00e5r. Vi var 4 uker i Goa og jobbet frivillig. Du kan lese om turen v\u00e5r HER om du \u00f8nsker det.. Men ja min kj\u00e6re lillebror er tilbake […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":3019,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[15],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4246","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-leserbrev"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4246","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4246"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4246\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4246"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4246"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogazadehazari.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4246"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}